'One day you think you are nearly there, the next it seems like it's over'.

Song of the day: Chasing Cars (Grey's Anatomy) - Snow Patrol


Today has been a long day, not too long ago I wrote a blogpost about how happy I was about UEA's offer because I was finally seeing some light at the end of the tunnel.


However, today was results day. Even though I'm currently quiet ill with flu I decided I had to go to college to collect my results instead of finding out by phone. I was quiet confident I had at least achieved an A in Chemistry so was going to tell them that I was going to do some resits again to improve my grades and meet the A*A offer that I have. 


Unfortunately, I was wrong. 


I have achieved the same grades as last summer. I have only achieved by a few UMS so  I am at a grade B in both Chemistry and Physics. When I received my results and saw all those Bs I just couldn't even talk, I felt so empty inside, so surprised, it was just so unexpected. Not even a single A in one of the modules, nothing. So I just left, no one asked how I had done, all teachers must have known already. They must have thought that they were right in telling me that with my results last summer I had reached my full potential. 


Now I don't know what to do. I have two options. 


- I can resit again all my modules to try to meed the offer by August which is accepted by UEA, however it's a big risk because if I didn't make it in two attempts why would it happen in June? Also if I go for this, I will ask for my papers back and maybe get some remarks. 


- Concentrate on my Spanish exams to get a place at a Spanish medical school. 


Both exams require quiet  a lot of preparation and are both in May/June period so even though I really want to do both I am not sure if I should try and do both. I don't want to risk having to take another gap year.


I just feel frustrated right now because I think I really worked hard for these exams and I just didn't get the marks I deserved, which I did get on the past papers. 


There is a problem somewhere but I have no idea where it is.


Comments are welcomed :) 


Thanks for reading!
Beh
@behrouzn